TWO

IT'S FRIDAY ALREADY. SCHOOL STARTS ON MONDAY. OR RATHER. IP WEEK STARTS ON MONDAY. WHY WHY WHY.

Crap. It doesn't even feel like I had a holiday at all :< barely remember waking up whenever I felt like it and doing whatever I wanted in the day. Hmm, first few weeks of holiday was like O's then grad night..then somehow I'm not sure where all the time in between disappeared to. Subsequently I got a job at Cold Stone and almost died that week cos of morning training then working from 3-12 and reaching home at 2 > therefore, I quit my job. After that was just training and trials and more trainings then x'mas came along and nothing special happened. Chiangmai was great and then 2012 began and now it's just ..... SCHOOL IS STARTING THIS IS JUST WEIRD. I mean, I haven't even held a pen in ages, and there's like diagnostic tests on the first day of school? whyyyyyyy? :(

Haven't been doing anything at all except getting tanner by the day with trainings almost everyday~ So thankful I managed to meet up with the Coolios on tuesday before training for a mini picnic @ botanic gardens. Wednesday was Uss with the batch but really it was just, the most unfortunate thing that I had to leave early and miss the dinner :( Damn. Gonna go out later on with the coolios again before going for training tonight.


For quite awhile I've been wondering if I really have put too much priority to softball and let it just... I dont know. The many, many people who are so disappointed in me because of the many things I've missed due to trainings and everything. Maybe, just maybe, I did want to go for the things I missed but I couldn't? I did. And I still wish I could. But who would ever know that? It's so easy to be disappointed in a person rather than to understand from their pov, isnt it? Not saying that everybody pls pity me now but like. It hurts. To know. That well. Nevermind.

SIGH. maybe I should just stop playing and get on with life.