How should I begin

this post.

pretty, isn't it?

It's December already, I had this strange feeling that school would never start but actually it's about a month to go plus everything from now on will just pass by really quickly. Quite a dull holiday, to be really honest, but nonetheless trainings have been occupying my time quite well and (hopefully) this will all pay off. 

The cookies remind me of christmas. Which is right around the corner. Sigh, it's not that surprising we have absolutely no plans at all and nothing to do and just the three of us rotting away sleeping before it's 12am waking up the next day like nothing special happened when it's c h r i s t m a s and everyone is having a ball of a time out there :( It's not that we don't celebrate christmas, but we don't do anything much, xept go to church. And yeah.... that about rounds up our christmas 'celebration'. How dull. We don't buy/get presents which I don't really mind but the whole atmosphere shouldn't feel like that!!!

Need to wake up at 5.50am tomorrow to leave the house by 6.30am tomorrow to make sure I'm not late but my hair isn't drying argh. Pretty frustrating day actually, cos of my pinky. It's refusing to bend and it's already close to twice/1.5x of my other pinky. Plus I don't know if it's supposed to look this fat and not straight. Silly mistake, really. RECOVER, PINKY, RECOVERR!!!

Hmm, what else? Although we were (supposed) to go for a vacation but since no one in this family is free/cares and plus my grandma is still hospitalized we're cancelling all plans in our heads. But, so thankful for the cm trip to come! Scared. So damn scared, but, it'll be a first! How exciting! 

now now, it would just help if my pinky would cooperate, and if I would stop doing silly things like this.

I AM UNPREPARED AND SCARED.

argh. shucks. why is everything about mememememememememe. selfish pot. :( asdfghjkjhgfcxdetydhndcywdgchue

thankful. nonetheless.