Decisions Decisions

How now, brown cow?

On Days Like This

I wish my brain was expandable or that I was really smart or capable.
Other granny in the hospital now. Sigh sigh.
I feel like a dumb dumb!

Orientation 12'

A-T-H-E-N-A 

Finally settled into the class for a week or so already! Feeling really quite blessed and all even though I've no
407/201 friends in the class. Everything's been q u i t e okay and class orientation + orientation with fac has been super exciting! OG meetings have been super fun with the mrt game and everything, really enjoyable even though super tired after training.

War games on thursday with fac was super hiong and everyone was so violent and crazy! Got ready in the lt with athena fac and it was super damn high and we were just in it to win the war, getting ready with face paint and everything green ^^ Campfire on friday night was just sick! Super fun and really one of the best nights I've had in school in a suuuuper long time :( Had massive fac dance prac and class performance prac then at night the campfire was totally cool. Fac didn't win anything BUT it's not the end and POP's gonna be really cool. Whole atmosphere was totally great last night while the faccom members performed and sodache was just so sweet while running around reuniting with 407 mates etcetc! So glad to spend the entire campfire night with Qisan, really. Sang our hearts out and cheered like no tomorrow. Really great night :') don't know how I managed to wake up this morning for fac dance prac and training.

buuuuuuuuuuuuut this mind boggling issue still sucks. such a major decision and sometimes I'll be absolutely fine to let it go BUT yet sometimes I'll be so willing to sacrifice the latter. Maybe it's not just being indecisive this time but really, it's such a big risk.

really hoping for a great week ahead! (and tomorrow actually)

H O W

how how how how how how how how how how how how how how how how how how how how how how how how how how how how I really want it but how how how how how how how how how should I get it up how how how how how how how how cos I can't go for it how how how how how how how that's gonna take a huge deal of guts how how how how how how how how how how how how how how how but what if I regret how how how how how how how how how

HOW?

hi I want to be your friend

Monday

Today's the first day of school. Reeeeeally nothing much except for lectures and diagnostic tests going on. The entire day at school was spent freezing in the auditorium, sucks to have not brought a jacket. The school campus is so huge and annoying and suddenly our cohort is like 2x as big :( Although school officially starts on 31st Jan or something today we already had math lectures and to be pretty honest, I think I'll grow to dislike lectures and stuff because I'd much prefer a classroom. sigh need to stop whining. Anyway managed to train a teeeeeny weeny bit after school and meet the juniors :) would have been a rly pleasant meeting but okay I lost my shoebag with my only white pair of school shoes that I was intending to wear with my hongzi for the next few days at least.

Realised I haven't really set any new year resolutions this yr! (but I may just end up trailing off into a rant of some sort). Okay first I need to upupup my tolerance level ^. this is a must. Be patient and follow point one. Be a nerd and study C O N S I S T E N T L Y and try to stick to that. Be less lazy and take more initiative for whatever, whenever. Not be a coward. Sleep earlier. Train hard not be lazy and pekcek if anything happens. Be neater and pack all my stuff (like maybe now). Treat all my friends nicely. Go to church every week. Actually the list will go on and on and on but that's all I have for now.

yesterday was such a terrible day. so tired after everything that happened.
busy busy day ahead and not exactly looking forward to it. at all.

^_^ may tmr be goooooood

at this rate, I'm gonna be breaking my fingers before I even make something good out of it.
I'm tired. Really really tired.
But I wanna do this right.